Two entries in one day, I know.

I found out that a friend of mine died over the weekend. This was not a “we saw it coming.” It was sudden, and completely unexpected.

Sometimes, you know someone, and you are completely aware that there was a time before you’d met…but you just can’t figure out how long ago it was. Annette was like that for me, I just don’t know how long I’ve known her. Now, a silhouette shaped like Annette has been cut from the pattern of my life.

Words are failing me when I really want them. There has to be a story, something that will stitch things so that they make sense…but I don’t know what it is.

Last year, I lost two friends. George was killed in an attempted robbery. Elise died from a post-surgical infection. George’s tragic murder has story, context, and a clear narrative path to grieving and healing. Elise’s passing had those things too.

Annette’s death, for me, has no such cushion to rest on. All I see is where she was, and will no longer be.

There were tales I’d yet to tell her. There were hugs, and affection left to give.

Don’t make the mistake of not taking opportunities to give those hugs, that affection, and tell those tales. We can never do it all, and we may always feel something has been left undone.. Acceptance will be easier if we know we did all we could have.

I think there are some things that should be said whenever the chance presents itself. They are:

  1. I’m proud of you
  2. You are a good person
  3. I accept you
  4. I love you
  5. I’m sorry
  6. I forgive you
  7. Thank you

Thanks for reading my ramble. I hope you are well, and take every chance to make your relationships as meaningful as you can.

I appreciate you very much.


What do you think?

Looking ahead at “Great Kills Believers,” I’ve come to a crossroads in dealing with the “boss monster.” On one hand, I’m considering strict satanic cult. On the other hand, I’m eyeballing something more along the lines of an ancient evil from the dawn of creation. I don’t want to step on Lovecraft, if I can avoid it, so the cosmology will be new.

Could I ask YOUR opinion on this? The last time I crowd sourced an idea, I ended up with “Manleigh Cheese.” I’d call that a success.

Speaking of “Manleigh Cheese,” I’m around 32K words into the sequel. That’s behind my goals, but I wasn’t expecting an evil encounter with writer’s block. The important thing is that I’m writing it in the first place. Right?

Now, completely unrelated to anything else…here is an example of Uchigumori. It is a stone used in the final polishing of Samurai swords. Have I mentioned that I have a wide range of unusual hobbies?

Uchigumori koppa

Great Kills

I hate that this story concept has obsessed me this much. I really want to work on the sequel to Manleigh Cheese, but it is getting pushed slightly to the side. The urge to pin down the darkness of GK, even if I’ve got notes, is incredibly strong.

Here’s what I’ve come up with, knowing it might not make it into the cover art design.

Great Kills BelieversI’m proposing that as the manuscript’s title.

The story concept involves punching mega churches right in the face. Not that I don’t respect everyone’s right to worship as they choose…I’ve read the Qu’ran, some of the Vedic texts, and other things…but the phenomenon of giant (very rich) congregations seems ripe for creative license. Please don’t take too much offense if you’re an individual that chooses large groups of believers!